My most personal blog post to date

Yesterday night, for some reason I felt all weepy. I thought maybe it’s hormonal, though I don’t normally feel that way.

I have lots to be grateful and thankful for. I have both my wonderful parents, I’m living in Australia, where each day is bringing the summer with it, I have the most incredible ‘real’ friends who I really should appreciate more, I feel great and look great at 44, I am doing what I want, when I want.. the ideal lifestyle right, and I have a husband who adores me. I honestly am truely thankful.

A friend reminded me there are ups and downs in life. Some ups may be higher, some downs may be lower. That’s the way life is. How you look at it is the only thing you can control. When you are in the self-pity mode, there is no way you can find a solution to pick yourself up out of there. You have to be at a higher place to solve those problems, and sometimes you should take the helping hand. That’s why I love coaching. That’s why I became a teacher. I’m also only human, and need that connection and support too.

I had a cry and it just came out. Our baby wishes and attempts over the past few years which I thought I had got over, were still with me. I hated how my body had rejected the natural gift to give life. Of course, I know that’s not true, it’s just how I felt at the time, in a vulnerable, confused and sad place. I had read something that day about a charity project and how they were setting up a school. I haven’t taught or been around kids in a year now, and September is the month most schools start back, so I guess subconsciously, there was a trigger when I saw all those beautiful faces. My heart melts every time.

This morning I woke up to several lovely messages from friends. One wrote to tell me of his book launch, he had struggled for years trying to find how to find his passion, the truth is, it was staring him right in the face- he was into film and photography and that’s what his book is about.

I know I will join that or another group on a future project, or go independently. I know I will write a book which follows my passion. I know whether I ever get to be a birth mother or not, I am part of a wonderful and loving family and will actually always be a mother and nurture and care for the well being of others and in so doing, it will enrich my life.

I’m on a self defined 30 day challenge to to something outrageous every day… sharing this has set a new bar for me.

Thanks for reading xx

To your goodness and your gorgeousness,

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  1. Sometimes we just need a release. Humans are emotional creatures, and often when we fight the urge to cry we only make ourselves feel worse. Let it out, reflect, and feel better.

    Beautiful post.

  2. farah – thank you for sharing your heart in this post. i’m a firm believer in crying – our body’s natural release when we need it the most. (i recently wrote about seasons of sadness that we go through, and can relate on some level to what you describe). i love the lessons that you’ve been able to pull from the bittersweet episodes of your life – it shows such strength of character. i will be thinking of you.

  3. Hi Farrah,

    Im really liking your blog and have recommended it to a few friends. So honest and inspiring. Keep up the great work!

    Sean

    • Hey Sean, thank you for replying, your kind words of encouragement mean a lot 🙂 I look forward to helping your friends out too in any way I can. Just get them over to receive my free report The Confidence To Change on the website and we can stay in touch that way 🙂 Thanks again 🙂

  4. Thank you for sharing this Farah – I can feel your humanity through it all, and I appreciate your willingness to be vulnerable enough to share it.

    I too have had some deep cathartic cries lately, and I honor those as part of my own healing and growing process, knowing that simply allowing the feeling to be what it is may be the biggest act of self-care I can give myself.

    • So true Sabrina. Sometimes in the busy-ness of just having to get on with things, we forget to allow, and express the emotions. It is very healing and even writing about it then sharing it has been enormously helpful. Thank you for your comments and yes, keep giving self love x

  5. Farah, thank you so much for your openness! Crying can be such a relief, I think it is actually one of the best things to help you find back to your balance. Whatever it is, let it out, do not put a band aid on it and try to ignore your feelings. We are all human after all :-).

  6. Yes! The band aid approach isn’t the answer, is it Nathalie! Thank you so much for your kindness, I really apppreciate you x

  7. What a beautiful, heartfelt post. Thanks for sharing your heart with us!

    • Thank you Karen 🙂 Sometimes I guess we worry too much about what others think, when in fact it’s not about them at all. It’s our own fear that holds us back from being expressive. It is not only personally liberating to be more open, but actually can help others too. I appreciate your reply Karen x

  8. Tears are a river that take you somewhere, and going with the release rather than against the flow is often easier said than done. Beautifully written and I can’t wait to hear about your 30 day adventure in doing something outrageous.

    • Hi Sherry! Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts 🙂 Since writing and sharing, so many great things have opened up, and I know when we release and accept and be in the moment, there is no fear. My 30 day challenge is going well, more on that soon – I will be adding it to my facebook page of the same name 🙂 See you there xx

  9. What’s that saying… sharing is caring, I think your share was very very personal, but shows that you are just like everyone, we all have great days and we all have really crap days, but being able to feel safe and loved enough to share how you feel and by doing so let go of how you are feeling is a gift, empowering and by sharing you’ll empower someone else to share themselves too and feel freedom too. I like your outrageous September! What’s new for October!? xx

    • Hi siobhan!
      Yes, letting go is the key. Letting go of the outcome actually frees you and creates space for something new. I hope it does empower others, if it made any positive difference, then it can only be a good thing. Thanks for the comment Siobhan, October will be even better than September! x

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